A dream that happened late in my morning sleep routine:
In my dream, I am in a room with several other people. One of them is addressing the rest of us. He reminds me a bit of Tom Buglio. All the other people -- with the possible exception of me -- are sitting cross-legged on the floor listening intently to him. Those who are sitting and listening are considerably younger than the speaker.
His method of explaining stuff has a pattern: an initial statement of an assertion followed by elaboration: a series of examples or other bits of information to support the initial assertion.
I have no problem with any of these initial assertions. They convey information that is useful to me. But the follow-on explanations are far more information than I really need. So I get up and do something else, which occasionally puts my back to the speaker. Now and then, I ask a question of the speaker. He responds with useful information, but my habit of turning away from him and doing something else continues.
I know this annoys him. And I think he answers my questions completely and without chastising me for ignoring his follow-on information -- because he doesn't want to interrupt the "lessons" he's providing for the rest of the group. I am grateful for the information he gives me/us, but doing these other things is equally important. And I feel compelled to continue doing those other things.
I think I "get it." In my dream, the speaker is God. He nourishes me in a number of different ways -- but in the dream, it's all about information. This lines up with the fixation I have about how it all has to make sense. Be logical. I ask and get answers, but then drift off into other things. It's not disrespect, it's just that I feel other obligations and pulls on my time. I feel a tug of envy that the others in the room can sit still and listen to the entire message. But I can't do that yet.
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